Today during the service the church took a few minutes to pray for my trip. Worship was crazy emotional today- especially for me. I don't know what it is but I definitely cry when I feel the spirit move during worship. Anyways- the songs today really spoke to me and made me think about how much my life really isn't my own, and how crazy it is how God has brought me this far. I also had to admit a lot of fear in going on this trip, but also trust in Him to be my strength.
Thank you ACTS family for your prayers today and for prayer as I continue on my journey. Pastor Kim, your words were very encouraging to me and I will take them with me as I go.
It is so amazing to have people who love you and care about you surround you in the most powerful way- through Prayer. Today, as I stood in the front of the church, surrounded by family and friends, I had a peace and a joy about this trip that, in all the excitement so far, has not been there. I know that no matter where on this earth I go I am never out of the hands of the Lord. That He is always with me, guiding me, caring for me, protecting me. Some days it's hard to "feel" Him, but that's when our faith kicks in.
People have been asking me over and over again- "Are you scared at all? Like, going to a foreign country?" Oh yea!! Of course I'm scared. And I'm nervous. I'm very uncomfortable doing things I've never done. But at the same time I'm super excited. I am afraid in a way, but I am not full of fear.
The other day I was praying and just really emphasizing to God what I was fearful about- traveling, etc. And a verse popped into my head. Maybe it's a little out of context, but it spoke to me. In my heart I kept hearing- "...perfect love casts out fear..." I knew that this verse didn't have to do with getting on an airplane or being in a country where they spoke German, or taking public transportation everyday. But God really spoke to me. He emphasized to me that- when we are in love with God, and not just a shallow affections, but a deep burning passionate desire for Him, fear is cast out. Not because fear isn't there. But because when we are so passionate about the path that God has for us, so enveloped in His love and affection, and so driven in worship and praise to Him, there is no room left in our minds for the fear that Satan wants to put there.
This was a wow moment for me. So as I go, I told myself, I am going to go to the airport, go through all the security, waiting, and boarding. Then- I will sit back in my seat, put on my headphones, and Worship.
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